Sweet Romance14 min read
The Shark, the Last Knot, and the Night of Fireworks
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I remember the night he stopped being mine in the small, clear way that happens when something solid gets a hairline crack and you keep looking at it until it splits.
"Why are you looking at her like that?" I caught him by the stairwell, the school's graduation gala spilling gold and glitter beyond the door. I pressed my hand to his tie because I couldn't think of anything else to anchor myself with.
He smirked down at me, the way he always did when everything was banal and he had decided to be bored. "Who's she?"
"That's not funny, Brady. We broke up yesterday."
"Then what? Congratulations?" He loosened my grip on his tie with a light, almost bored motion. "I told you not to regret it."
I tasted the words in my head like the bitter end of an orange peel. He had said them once, calm and final, like a verdict.
"You're really going to say that right now?" I demanded, and he tilted his head in the slanted light. That tilt, that half-smile—small things of his used to be my whole map.
"Yep." He answered as if we were talking about weather. "And she’s my girlfriend."
He said it like a fact. The fact hit like a thrown plate.
Back then, our four years had made me dizzy in a way I couldn't calibrate. I loved him in an odd, specific way: I loved the way he handed me an ugly durian-flavored popsicle and dared me to eat it, and how his smile at the corner of his mouth stole my breath. I loved that he sometimes forgot birthdays and I forgave him because when he leaned over and kissed the corner of my mouth—just like that—the world recalculated.
"First kiss?" he had teased once when he pressed his mouth briefly to mine in a dark equipment room. He’d said, "How dare you chase me," in a voice that made my knees soft. It was a little insolent, and a little sweet, and it lasted until the morning light dissolved the feeling into memory.
Then I messed up. I saw him walking close to another girl in a corridor, his head tilted, the smile the same one he had given me twice a semester. I drank too much that night and told him to leave me. I wanted to hear him say he couldn't let me go. Instead, he said, "Fine." Quiet. Practical. A surgeon of words.
"Don't regret it," he told me as if he had been preparing for this for weeks. "I won't come back."
On the night of the gala, he didn't come back. He walked in new and clean, and a woman leaned her hand on his shoulder as if she had been given permission to do so. I watched them move through the crowd. A friend whispered, "You think he was waiting for you to end it?" I sipped orange pulp and let it sting my throat.
He had always been practiced at not being present, and it was killing me.
After graduation, the routine was supposed to save me. Office hours, coffee breaks, the small arithmetic of life. I deleted our chat and felt a stupid little rise of relief—then, oddly, a small panic. I had written entire novels in green bubbles to him; he had answered in white boxes that were brief and precise. Deleting him felt like deleting part of my map.
At work, a familiar voice—bright, a little too present—said, "Avianna? Long time."
Hudson Cohen sat in my cubicle like a warm, honest piece of music. He'd been at university a year under me, a kid who had once helped me dig up references when my design project was accused of plagiarism three years ago. He came in wearing a grin and a new suit.
"You're back in town?" I asked.
"Yeah." He shrugged. "Internship. Look, I get stuck with you. Teach me the ropes, teach me your patience."
"You're getting the short end of the stick," I muttered. He sat down anyway. He had that look—open, steady; he could make a small joke and then listen like it mattered. He didn't have the sharp, glassy polish of Brady. He was comfortable, which was a new feeling.
We fell into a small orbit. He cooked a little; I showed him how to file expense reports; he let me rant. He lived a door down by accident or design; I wasn't sure. "This neighborhood has cheap rent and good cafes," he said. "Perfect for artists pretending to be practical."
He was the kind of person who asked, "You okay?" and meant it. He smoothed a stray cough from my shoulder one night and said, "If you want, I can drive you home." I refused and then accepted because he was not demanding. He had a way of making me feel seen without making me indebted.
"You're pretty," he said one evening, eyes on the moon. "And you fight like you love someone too much."
"That's the worst kind of fight," I said. "It leaves you with used spoons and broken promises."
He laughed. "Then we fix the spoons."
I laughed and didn't know whether I was laughing at him or at myself.
Hudson was patient when I laughed; when I cried, he was awkward and then unavoidably kind. He booked a small, strange birthday for me—without me realizing it. "Come to the pier," he'd written, "Bring nothing but your jacket and bad jokes." He'd taken me to a private, half-forgotten seaside fairground at night. We rode the Ferris wheel until the top and watched fireworks blot the horizon.
"All the unhappiness will disappear when we're at the top," he said as if reading a line he loved.
"It's not that easy."
He smiled like a boy who'd learned to make something beautiful from a broken toy. "Then we keep practicing."
For the first time in months, I slept without the low throb of his image. For the first time in months, I didn't wake at night imagining him as a question mark behind my shoulder.
But the world is small when you move in the same city. One night, at an industry awards gala, the lights dimmed, food steam drifted, and the room smelled like perfume and ambition. I came with Hudson, pinned my hair tight, and walked in like someone entering a painting that might critique her. We found a corner, a cake, and a few seats.
And then I saw him — Brady McDonald — tall, immaculate, the kind of man who owned a room. The host introduced someone; Brady rose to applaud on a dais, and the sound of him made a hollow in my chest.
"It would have meant something if you'd stood with me that night," I said quietly to Hudson on the balcony later, a half-joke that didn't land.
Hudson's face was kind in the dim. "You wanted him to fight for you?"
"I wanted him to be human," I whispered.
A woman came up, one of those people who could be famous or maybe the story of a famous part. She was Estella Beach, whose laugh could be played in magazines. Someone near me made a low comment about a past plagiarism scandal, and a voice—sharp, warm with old anger—cut across.
"Of course she's here," Jessica Peters said, loud enough for the wrong circle to hear. "Isn't she the one whose design made a mess of everything three years ago?"
Heads turned. Whispers became wavelets.
"Stop," I said, and then realized I was the center of an ugly ring of glassy stares. The past opened like a seam, and people reached in.
"She copied," Jessica kept saying, pushing advantage. "Why would you let someone who copied come to this event?"
I could hear my heart. I could feel Brady's eyes on me like a verdict. He chose, in that crowd, not to speak. He let the rumor breathe. I felt something in me split: a recognition that the man who had been safe in the past was cowardly now when confrontation mattered.
Hudson didn't let it stand. He stepped in and did something brave and simple: he spoke my name and then, even braver, he said what he had seen. "Avianna didn't copy," he said, voice steady. "Someone set her up. I helped her gather proof when we were students. Don't talk about things you don't know."
The room tilted. Jessica bristled like a struck animal. People looked between us. Brady watched. He didn't intervene.
Later, those scenes hardened into a chain of events that would reach public eyes.
I worked through the rumor like a wound. Papers, statements, a professor's voice over a signature—then little by little the truth was pulled out like a thorn. The academy issued a statement. The woman who had accused me apologized in public. People I had thought would never listen leaned in.
"Who helped you?" someone asked me at a reunion.
I answered honestly: "Some people I barely knew and one person who stayed."
"Brady?" they said, and I said no. Brady had been a man who watched storms come and went with a strangeness that didn't reach his mouth. Hudson had been the one who stood at the wind's edge and offered his jacket.
Vindication was not sweet in the way I had imagined. It was not a victory with banners. It was small, bureaucratic, necessary. My name cleared. The world kept revolving. My work reappeared.
And then it happened—the kind of public punishment that, in the books, says: the universe has a taste for justice.
It was an industry gala—the city's biggest—where Brady's company sponsored an innovation award. The room was full: clients, journalists, designers, and people who liked the feeling of being in the room where stories were made. The program was crisp and the lighting soft. I had not expected to be there. But Hudson had bought a ticket, had surprised me with warm hands and a level look.
"Come on," he had said. "I think it's time you saw him again, but this time not alone."
He had a plan. I didn't know the whole of it.
As the host called Brady to the stage to accept a corporate plaque for "Emerging Talent," a hush moved across the audience. Cameras tilted. Brady walked with that practiced gait—perfect lapel, clipped tie—small smiles like measured coins.
"Congratulations," someone joked, and he plate-spun a compliment back to them. The microphone caught the ritual phrases and brushed them into the ceiling.
Then, without fanfare, Hudson stood up. He walked to the edge of the stage like someone following a map he'd memorized. He stepped into the light and spoke: "I have something to say."
I felt my breath stop. I saw Brady's face register something like curiosity and then irritation. The room rustled.
Hudson did not raise his voice. He held a small folder, and he unfolded it like a man unfolding a truth.
"This plaque is for one kind of talent," he said, voice steady. "But real talent should not be built on leaving people behind or on cowardice."
There was a small, stunned silence. "What are you doing?" Brady hissed from the stage, but Hudson continued.
"I knew Avianna in school," Hudson said. "I saw her fight to build her designs. I watched people tear at her reputation with lies. And tonight I saw some of the same people clapping for the man who didn't speak when lies were told about her."
Heads turned. "Brady," Hudson said, and for the first time the microphone made the name into something public. "You stood by while a good person was attacked. You didn't answer when she needed you. That speaks louder than any award."
A ripple ran through the audience—shock, then a thousand phones up at once, light like fireflies. People bent forward. The cameras found the scene: Brady on a stage, Hudson at the edge, and me sitting in the third row, feeling my name come out of someone else's mouth and land warm.
Brady's complexion shifted. For a moment he seemed amused. Then the amusement melted. He laughed; it was a thin thing. "Are you calling me a coward?" he said, in the tone of someone who wants a fight on his terms.
Hudson smiled—not triumphantly, not cruelly, only with a quiet firmness. "I call you out then. If you have the courage of your convictions, tell them why you left her to that rumor. Tell them why you chose not to say a word." He stepped forward another foot.
The room smelled of perfume and polished wood and the electricity of a story snapping. I felt every eye, from clients in their glittering scarves to junior designers leaning on their seats, focused. The hum of whispered speculation rose.
Brady's mouth opened, shut. He started to say something defensive, something about timing, about "It was complicated," about "I didn't know." But the words fell apart under the weight of the silence. He had been practiced at rehearsed statements; the unpracticed honesty refused to assemble.
"Why didn't you help?" Hudson persisted. "You had friends up high. You could have said anything. You didn't. You waited until you could look good and then you looked good." There was no accusation of malice—just the quiet, corrosive truth: indifference is a choice.
I stood up then, because my shame had become a public thing and my courage was a small, hot stone. I walked to the stage. People gasped. I climbed the few steps slowly and looked at Brady as the spotlight washed us. He had that expression—an old, handsome thing meeting weather. He was defensive now in his eyes, like a dog who'd been surprised by a noise.
"Brady," I said. My voice was thin but it held. "Do you remember telling me not to regret? Do you remember how you said you wouldn't come back?"
He blinked. The audience leaned in. "We broke up because I left," I continued. "You were the one who made the choice to end it the way you did. You didn't fight for me when I needed it—it wasn't courage, Brady, it was convenience. Tonight you stand here honored while you left me when I was fighting to keep my name. You were gone when I needed you."
There were murmurs now, parts of the room clicking into a pattern. A reporter next to me whispered into a recorder, and the noise of live coverage hummed.
Brady's face hardened. He laughed too quickly, a sound like broken glass. "Avianna, this is ridiculous."
"It was ridiculous the day it happened," I said, and something in me was steadier with each word. "You told me to move on. I did. I stopped knocking on doors that were locked to me. I cleaned my own mess. I fought. I grew."
The audience was changing. Some people who had once clucked like hens were suddenly silent. Cameras adjusted. The host, with a paper tremor in his hand, tried to steer things back to the scheduled program, but the schedule had been eclipsed by a better story: a public person being held to a simple moral ledger.
"You're being dramatic," Brady said, and his voice cracked on the last syllable. I watched him. He had looked so graceful in the torchlight earlier; now he looked like a statue dislodged.
Hudson stepped forward and said, "You can defend yourself. Tell them why you didn't stand for her. Tell them who you were protecting by letting her fall." He handed the folder he carried to one of the event coordinators, who opened it on the stage table. Inside there were timelines, emails, messages—documented small acts that made a larger picture. The room read them like a book.
"Are those...?" someone whispered. The journalist raised their phone and the screen showered the room in blue light.
Brady's jaw worked. The first motion was not to speak, but to retreat, the flinch of someone whose costume had been found fake. He swallowed, then tried a defense. "Those are out of context. It's complicated," he said. "You don't know everything, Avianna."
"I don't have to know everything," I said. "You could have said one sentence. And you didn't."
For a span that felt like forever and also like no time at all, he scrambled for dignity and failed. The audience, hungry for authenticity, turned away from his practiced charm. People who had once smiled at him now averted their glance with the same subtle, social scorn that leaves a person naked of applause. A few attendees who had earlier been friendly now looked at him with a new coolness, as if they'd noticed the wrongness of a man who could look the other way.
Then—somewhere in the crowd, from a server who had overheard something in the kitchen—someone clapped. It was a small, surprised sound. Then another hand followed. The residual sympathy that often surrounds the strong evaporated; what remained was something cleaner: people wanting fairness. A few voices called out, "Stand up straight. Say something." Not cheers. Not mockery. A demand for accountability packaged as new attention.
Brady's face changed again. First, he was stunned. Then he grew pale. Then he tried to smile; it was brittle. He opened his mouth and closed it like an animal deciding whether to flee or to fight. Finally, his great control cracked into a flood. He leaped down like a man attempting to reclaim a stage and in the same motion his phone vibrated in his pocket. Someone took a photo. Another began to livestream. You could feel the social media storm being born.
As the cameras focused, his composure dissolved into a sequence of denials: "That's not how it was," "I—" "I thought—" He attempted tottered explanations that didn't cohere. The audience, who had once listened to him like a holy text, now tilted their heads and filled in blanks with judgment. People who had once sought his nod now averted their faces. A client whose loyalty had been performance left an open seat. A young designer tucked into the crowd whispered to a friend, "If he won't stand by someone he loved, what are we applauding?"
Brady tried to salvage something, to craft a narrative of complexity. It didn't stick. The room, full of people who trade in perception and reputation, reacted quickly. One by one, the small favors, the polite smiles, the easy introductions evaporated. Friends who had been deferential now kept distance. Someone he had scheduled dinner with for next week excused themselves in the foyer and did not return.
It was not a violent scene. No windows shattered. No one called the police. It was a civil, decisive unmasking: an audience choosing not to lend warmth to a man who'd chosen convenience over care. The humiliation was not mean; it was a kind of social inversion where the comfortable seat he had used for years was retracted. His victory plaque felt suddenly like a hollow prop.
He left the stage before the second round of applause. I watched the fine line of his mouth tighten as he stepped down into a crowd that had become cool as steel. He walked through the room and people parted politely, like a river around a stone. The night that once wrapped him in approval now rewired itself into a memory of his absence. A few latecomers cried, "Keep going!" but the momentum was gone.
Later, people would upload the video. Captions would read: "When applause isn't the same" or "The man who didn't speak." The clip would go small-viral in certain circles; a few columns would pick at the anatomy of the moment. Brady's name collected commentary as quickly as leaves after a storm.
When he finally found me standing by the windows, he looked raw. "Avianna," he said, and I saw fear under the practiced polish. He tried to blame circumstance, logistics, and the stupidity of timing. "I'm sorry," he said, low, but the apology arrived like a foreign language in my ears.
"Sorry doesn't unring the bell," I answered, and I meant it. "You made a choice."
He faltered. "Do you forgive me?" he asked finally.
"Forgiveness is a different job," I said. "You had a chance to be a person. You weren't."
He looked like a man emptying pockets of excuses and finding only lint. He left, and the room turned back to its scheduled announcements, but the air was altered. The evening had become, for many, a lesson in what someone will not tolerate.
After that night, Brady's orbit changed. Invitations softened. Clients who had once hugged him now nodded with coolness. People who had once called him for favors found their phones ignored. It was not punishment measured by law or malice; it was simply the social frost of people choosing not to prop up someone who had been absent when it mattered.
That public moment did something to me: it put a line between the man he had been in my memory—someone who could be admired for style—and the person who had been absent. I felt lighter, as if air had finally been shunted into a dark lung. Hudson squeezed my hand and said, "You stepped up."
"I had to," I said.
Hudson and I walked home under a sky that felt less loaded than before. He had been there in the crowd, steady as a lighthouse. "Do you want to talk about anything else?" he asked.
"No," I said. "Just walk me home."
We passed the pier where the fireworks had once fallen like confetti; the shark plush from old birthdays sat in my living room, still patched. The next weeks were gentle: Hudson's jokes in the kitchen, the small care of making coffee, the soft routine of normal things. He didn't ask me to be anything but present. He didn't correct my grief into gratitude. He let me be messy.
"Will you forgive him?" he asked one night, when the moon painted the floorboards.
"I don't know," I said. "Maybe. Forgiveness is a shape I have to make myself."
"You don't owe me anything," he said.
"I never thought I'd say this, but thank you for being ordinary," I answered. He smiled like someone who'd been given the right props.
Time moved like a slow train. Brady carried on his life, which included good suits and polite dinners and people who loved the image he'd cultivated. But the industry is a small place and the memory of the gala was not something easily polished away. When you remove applause, sooner or later the scaffolding creaks.
As for me, my vindication at school opened doors slowly. People I thought would never reach out did. An old teacher told me, "Avianna, people saw the truth. They just needed proof." She nodded, and I felt the small dignity of rightness touch my chest.
Months later, at the river where fireworks had once made the night holy, I stood with Hudson and watched the city breathe. He wrapped a shawl around my shoulders and said, "You know, I liked the shark."
"It felt like you at nineteen," I said. "Stubborn, loud, and absurd."
He laughed. "Those are good things."
I kept the shark on the chair in my living room for years. On my wedding day—yes, I married someone kind, someone steady—the plush sat in an empty seat. I had learned that some love stories are messy, some love stories teach you to stand upright, and some teach you that being loved doesn't mean being conquered. Brady had been a part of my past—sharp and instructive—but not the end of my story.
When the ceremony asked whom I was going to love, I walked down the aisle with my heart stitched in places and my hands full of small, true things. The white dress felt like armor and confetti at once. In the crowd I could see faces from old chapters—some blurred out, some brightly present. Hudson smiled like a man who'd given me a horizon, and I remember the little private thought: "He didn't need to rescue me; he chose to walk beside me."
I never forgot the night of the gala. I never forgot the way the shark smelled of cotton and memory. I never forgot how courage sometimes looks like a man standing up at the edge of a stage and handing you back your name.
The End
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