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Snow, Contracts, and a Glass Crown
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I remember the cold first.
Snow came down like white paper, slow and stubborn. I remember the white of my fur, the thinness of his sleeves, and the way the world seemed to tune itself to one small foot.
"It is enough," I said.
He looked up at me from the snow. His face was thinner than I had expected. His knuckles were frozen and cracked. He kept his back straight as if wood still held him up, and his eyes were knives wrapped in ice.
"Miss Florence," he said, and his voice was raw. "Do not."
I put my foot down on his hand.
The silver-threaded shoe pressed into skin gone numb. He did not cry out. He bared his teeth like some animal. The snow landed on his lashes and on the ridge of his cheek, and that look—sharp, distant—went straight through me.
"Forgive me," I said.
He did not answer. He only glared, and something hardened in that stare.
He was seventeen. He wore the rags of a scholar who had walked a long road. He had a marital bond folded in his hand like a secret talisman. He had come to my father’s house to claim it.
"You don't have to kneel," I said. "If you do not want to marry into such a family, I will speak for it. The contract can be ended."
He looked at me like I had told him the world was dying. "You think you can decide that?"
"Yes." I lifted my foot a fraction and then placed it heavier so he could feel it. "I can. I will."
He swallowed. Snow fell between us. He held his breath until it was a small white cloud.
"Do it," he said at last. "If you must."
And so I did. I left my foot there for a heartbeat and then I took it away.
He got up with his hand bleeding, refusing the help my servants held out.
"I will go," he said. He bowed stiffly once, as if even anger must be formal. He left my house without a backward glance.
That winter is the memory I always thought would save me.
The last time I remembered that winter, I had been foolish and cruel and stupid. I remembered how, in a life that had been the first, I had been fifteen and petulant, and I had made that boy kneel in snow because I could not bear the thought of being bound to poverty. I remembered how then—later—I loved him until my ribs broke.
He would repay me in full.
I remember those details because I have tasted them twice.
"Florence," my mother said that evening when I came in half-frozen, "you look like you have seen too much."
"I trod in snow," I lied, but my fingers would not stop shaking. I held the hot cup she placed in my hands and pretended the steam was all there was.
"Your father will be angry if the household rumors spread," she said. "We will speak with him and the clan elders. A simple end is best."
"That is what I want," I said.
Halo, my maid, watched me close with those eyes with which all servants measure the private and public. She was not kind on the surface, but she was mine.
"You are cold," Halo said. "Let me warm you."
She took off my fox-warm muff and fussed at my hair. "Why did you go out?" she asked.
"Because it needed doing," I said. "Because otherwise the story would fold us into shame."
Halo snorted in reply. "Shame is heavy, miss. You should not carry it alone."
I buried my face in the cup. That thin warmth was all the world offered.
After that morning I did what I thought would be the clean thing. I burned the old marriage papers in the brazier. Burning a paper feels too small.
"No going back," I said aloud as the edge of the parchment curled into black.
"It will look like the right choice when the clan talks," my mother answered. "You have done what a good daughter should."
I kept thinking of the boy in the snow. I kept thinking he would one day hold a seat at court; they always told of men who rose from nothing. But I believed, in the way only the naive do, that a steady heart can be kept safe. I told myself I would not be the woman in the other life who ended up begging and then dead.
He was called Cael Box when he came to our door. He would be called something else in later years—Minister, Chief Secretary, a name that the courtiers would stamp and inscribe—but in that bleak first day, he had only the quiet pride of hunger.
"You look like the kind who keeps lists," I said to him once when we spoke again in the courtyard.
He understood contempt and did not hide it. "And you look like the kind who breaks them."
"You have reasons to hate me," I said.
He folded his arms. "You made me kneel in the snow, Miss Florence. You stepped on my hand."
"Yes," I said. "I did. I was cruel and I regret it. I will tell you now: I will find another way. I will end the marriage."
"It is not your choice," Cael said.
"You are right," I said. "But I will act."
He left.
Years shift slow. The snow melted; our anger hardened. Cael disappeared into life and letters, into exams and long nights by the lamp. He came back different. The world had been merciless to him, or he had become merciless to it.
I watched his rise from a distance. He learned to hold grudges like tools. He married my half-sister Dream Farrell not for love but for the means it gave him. People whispered that he had taken her because she had drawn his eye; that she had helped herself into the place those eyes wanted. I remember the look on Dream's face—an odd mixture of triumph and guilt.
"You should be careful," Halo whispered to me once. "He keeps his hurts like a ledger."
"I will be watchful," I said.
But watchfulness is not the same as shy restraint. I loved him in the wrong way, I loved him with my lungs and my life. I tried to help him when he needed a surgeon on a far journey. I used what sway we had to gather physicians and men of letters for him. I walked the corridors of favor and secured the threads that might lift his name. I thought I could sew the rents of the world with my hands.
He turned my care into cruelty.
At the court he rose to power. When the city was attacked and my sister and I were taken prisoner, he brought five chests of ransom instead of ten, as if deciding which woman to free was a simple arithmetic problem. They watched me with the enemy and chose my sister to be tended; I was left with an insult. He told the captors only to take what was necessary. He dared me to call him heartless; he dared me to feel small. I felt the same things I felt before: the humiliation, the smallness, the unraveling.
When the palace and robberies and a thousand small cruelties had been suffered, he returned to power, and he returned as someone who had learned to repay debts in full. He took our house and our holdings. He stood over me as I begged, and he smiled.
"Do you remember the snow?" he asked once while I knelt, pleading humility.
"Yes," I whispered.
"Do you think you're owed anything?" he said.
"Only silence," I said.
He took everything.
The memory of that day in the snow faintly guided me for a long time. I told myself, often, that if I ever had a second chance I would play softer. I would be kind in a new way. I would flatter like my sister. I would swallow like the rest.
I dreamt of it—dreams that felt like warnings. I dreamed of my brother, Karl Correia, lying bleeding after a rescue, and I rode my white mare through wind and storm to find a doctor. I dreamt of danger in the ten-mile pavilion and knew to warn the prince.
That is a strange thing about second chances: you can imagine them as you sleep and still find your hands making the same mistake.
The second life gave me the memory of the ruin. It also gave me the stubbornness to try again.
I met Ervin Curry—the prince they called small, the one the palace kept close and the country feared. He was not the same as the cold man who had once seemed like a god of snow to me. He laughed more and wore his pride under his sleeves. He had once been wounded in my earlier life; he had walked with a limp in my memory. Here, in the life returned to me, he stood straighter.
He was quick to anger. He was quick to save.
"You are always at the wrong place," he said when I ran into him at the ten-mile pavilion with a box of sweet rice dumplings in my hands, palms numb from the cold.
"I am at the right place when you need something," I said.
He rolled his eyes. "Do you bring me sweets or a warning?"
"Both," I said. "Eat one."
He took one and bit. "Not bad," he said, with a mouthful.
I told him I had come because I had a bad feeling. He smiled, then his expression hardened as archers loosed and men rushed. He pulled me down behind a pillar.
"Do not look," he told me, and then he caught an arrow meant for me.
He did not limp after that day, but he bled. He was not the slow, cold man I had met in the memory—I found him alive and sharp and near.
"Why did you come to the pavilion alone?" he asked later as we sat in the dark of a back room in the temple, the lantern shaking.
"Because I could not stay still," I said. "Because I had a thing to fix and a fear to tell."
He touched my hair with a finger and for a moment I forgot the old ledger I had learned to keep. "You are reckless," he said.
"Perhaps," I answered. "Or perhaps I finally learned something about courage."
Ervin liked me less because I was delicate and more because I was stubborn. He saved me twice and teased me like a brother. He called me blunt names and then softened them. When he laughed, the corners of his eyes bent, and for the first time in many years, I felt something like safety.
"I am not asking you to marry me," he said once, unexpectedly, when we were walking under early plum blossoms. "But if you were not wed to anyone, Florence, I would be sorry to see you press into such danger alone."
His voice was quiet.
"Would you take me as I am?" I asked.
He pushed his sleeve back and looked at his palm. "If I cannot, then I am a poor man to care for anyone," he said. "But I can make you safe."
That kind, simple promise lodged inside me like an ember.
I tried to make myself small. I withdrew the way one withdraws a knife to not wound further. I folded my desires into a coin and put it away. I burned what I could burn—papers, habits, grudges. I made a show of being the perfect, quiet daughter.
Then Cael Box did what vindictive men do when they are drunk on power. He seized our home. He took it piece by piece. He took my brother's posts. He made Dream Farrell's life rise, yes, but only if she was willing to stand on the bones of the rest of us. I begged at his feet. I tore at his hands with words I did not think I had.
"Stop," I said once when he sat across from me in the hall and drank like a man tasting victory.
He smirked. "You asked me to take my revenge," he said.
"You never needed revenge," I said. "You needed love."
He laughed until it sounded hard. "Love is a luxury," he said. "I prefer justice."
"You call your actions justice?" I demanded.
He rose slowly, as if he had the weight of many small injustices in him. "You burned the contract," he said. "You stepped on my hand. The world gave me nothing, and I repaid it."
I went to him because I could not bear the way my mother cried. He watched me and then, with the same precise cruelty, he made me vanish from his life for many years. I fell apart behind the closed doors.
I remember the last night of my first life in a way that still hurts. I remember the way I bit, and begged, and then chose an end because I could not face the ruin he had made me into. I remember my blade and the thin hot blood that surprised me with its betrayal. He was not there when I fell. He came later.
I wanted a different fate the second time I felt the weight of despair. I wanted to be the woman who kept her pulse steady and not the one whose pain announced itself with the last frantic clutches.
But I misstepped again.
I stood over him like the girl who had scorned a young boy years ago. I put my foot down.
"Do you remember that you once told me to walk away?" I asked Cael, who had more titles and gold than he would use in his death.
He blinked. "You are not playing the same games," he said, flat.
"I am asking for the marriage to be ended," I said.
He smiled thinly. "You think you can decide my happiness?"
"I can decide mine," I said. "And I do."
He half-bowed. "Then go."
I left as I had left when we were young, and for a long while I meant to keep it at that. I thought I had severed the thread. But men like Cael do not forget. He grew cold and cruel and clever. When he had power, he struck. He seized our house. He stripped my family of title. He made it so my name was a caution for the young women of the city.
I begged for mercy and he enjoyed my supplication. He put his hand beneath my chin and looked at my face as I knelt. There was the old cold in him still.
"Now that you kneel again," he said, "does it taste better the second time?"
"It tastes of shame," I said.
He laughed and the sound filled the hall: a sound of nails tapping on wood.
After that life I burned myself out. I thought the story had ended. I thought there was no rising star left for any of us. I died thinking I had loved and lost and learned nothing.
Then I woke up. The snow was coming down again.
My second life began at that same tenth-some mile marker of snow and regret. This time I felt a curious lightness I could not explain. I knew much—too much—of the years to come, yet I had the sharp fear that memory itself was a slippery thing. I vowed to be different. I told myself I would be kinder, cleverer, quieter.
What I did not expect was the ease with which old habits returned. The foot came down again. I burned the contract. I walked away.
"You are cruel," Halo said to me once in the silk-warm chamber.
"I'm trying not to destroy another life," I answered.
She stared at me with an expression servants use when the world is shifting: part wonder, part worry. "You are like a woman who keeps breaking plates and then asks why the table is not whole."
I almost laughed.
The winter that followed was full of small changes. I rode to the pavilion when the dream told me. I found the prince Ervin hiding behind a pillar and saved him from an ambush. He saved me back. He picked up an arrow and gave me a look I will never forget.
"You are like a wild thing," he said, panting as we sat in an inner room of the ruined temple. "You must stop getting yourself killed."
"Would you have me stay in the parlor?" I asked. "Sit with pots and rugs until a man calls me wife?"
"No," he said. "But be careful."
"I will," I said, and meant it for a while.
The city shifted like a slow tide. Cael grew in strength. Ervin walked the corridors of court with a new ease. I kept my head down and watched. I let kindness out like a measured cup rather than a flooding river.
Then the moment came when Cael had what he wanted, and he used it.
He took Dream Farrell’s hand and made her a partner in his rise. Dream was not heartless. She had chosen her survival, but she had chosen it knowing how many of us would burn. She sat in silk while our house was searched. She bore a child who looked so like Cael that rumor said the boy had his eyes and his viciousness both.
One evening, at a feast Cordially meant to honor me for some errand I had run, I saw how easily people took a man's rise for granted. They bowed to him and spat at our name when he turned away. I saw the faces of my neighbors shift. He had taken everything in his net; he had turned it to gold and broken it.
"Do not look at him too much," Ervin warned me softly when we left the hall.
"It is hard to look away," I said.
"You once stepped on a boy's hand," he said, half-smiling. "It was a small cruelty."
"It grew," I said. "It grew into a thing that hurt everyone."
He stopped walking and looked at me. "Then stop it now."
Stopping is an act of will and of danger. Cael's wounds had turned into teeth. He bit whoever came near him. He made sure that when words were not enough, there would be of the other kinds of punishments: fines, exiles, sarcastic legalities.
I did not think he would be undone.
He was.
It happened in a way that twisted all the predictable fates.
The imperial court is a place that houses a hundred small deaths. Men make and break alliances like glass. Rumors can be sharpened into weapons. A single piece of truth, properly shouted, will make even the most steel-coated proud man bleed.
It is important to describe what happened properly, because Cael Box's punishment must be seen as it was: public, staged, and complete. It must be the kind of downfall that leaves a man unmade in front of the very people who made him.
It began with a small, polite meeting.
"Lord Cael," said the Herald, "you are summoned to answer a grievance."
"You mean an accusation," a gentleman nearby said.
"Call it what you will," said the Herald, and the crowd that had gathered leaned in with the next thing a dozen people always want: spectacle.
They brought forth lists and ledgers and a small trunk of letters. They opened it before the court. The Emperor's chamber had those who mattered—ministers, courtiers, men who had once lent Cael a smile that counted for weight.
"These are gifts," the prosecutor told them. "These are bribes. This man took gold and lands and gave them the appearance of law."
"I am not the giver of gifts I accepted," Cael said once he was allowed to speak. "I am a man who did what was necessary."
Sweat beaded at his forehead. Men in the court did not stand still for much. They liked a man who kept his shoulders clean.
"Do you deny that you ordered the deeds to the Carney holdings sealed under your own name?" one voice demanded. "Do you deny that this woman, Florence Carney, and her kin were stripped of title under papers signed by your clerk?"
"I signed for the state," he said. "I signed because the law allowed it."
The room murmured. The crowd leaned closer.
"They were your enemies," another man said. "You took advantage of the Emperor's trust."
Cael's eyes shifted. They landed on me, on Ervin, and then on the magistrate who had prepped the case.
"You think you can take this man down?" Cael hissed, and his voice was not loud but it cut. "He will make you all pay for this."
"Perhaps," the magistrate said. "But men do not own the law. You do not bind the law to your will."
"These are the words of men who once bowed to you," Cael said. "You are the ones who gave me power."
"You took it," the magistrate said. "You used it to steal titles and to break families. Today we return them."
Then came the hand that matters in every public humiliation: the removal. They stripped Cael of his seals in the center of the court.
"Seize his seals," the herald said.
Guards moved in. Cael tried to pull them back with a hand like a claw, trying to keep his composure like a great tree refusing to fall. He failed.
"I demand to speak to the Emperor," he called, voice high, then lower as the guards tightened. "You will not—"
They took his orders and burned them in the brazier by the dais. There was a small, mean silence when anything property of a man is burned. Men watch paper burn and they feel smaller, and the crowd in the court felt smaller too.
"Confiscate his holdings," the magistrate ordered.
"They are to be given back," said the Emperor's envoy.
Cael's face changed. For a moment he was not the composed man of public memory; he returned to a boy kneeling in the snow. That look—proud, small, then collapsing—took him.
"No," he said. "You cannot do this."
"You stepped on hands," the magistrate said. "You stole treasuries. You lied to the court. That is a law."
The crowd broke into talk—soft at first and then an ugly crescendo. Ladies in silk pressed closer; some men who had dined at Cael's table whispered and then looked away; a child in the back mimicked a bow and laughed. A woman in the gallery, whose family had been ruined, spat at the steps.
"You have turned many lives to ruin," the magistrate said. "You will be punished."
"I will never—" Cael choked.
"Hold him," someone commanded. The guards pushed him to the ground. He raised his face in a last proud attempt. His cheeks were slick.
"You will stand in public," the magistrate said. "You will be declared guilty of corruption and theft. Your title is stripped. Your lands are returned. Let this be a warning."
They had him walk the breadth of the hall like a man on parade, only in a parade of shame. The people looked at him like a carnival display. Cael's mouth moved but he could not make the words the hall wanted.
Around us, people recorded with their hands and with their eyes. Men who had once courted him stepped aside. Friends who had smiled at his counsel made no offer. His face became a child's face, a mask with teeth bared but no temper.
"I will not accept this!" he cried at last, and it was not a cry of defiance but of raw, certain fear. "You will not—"
The magistrate raised a hand. "We accept it," he said. "The law accepts it. Even the Emperor accepts it."
The sunlight through the lattice brightened on the courtsmen's faces. A silk scarf that Cael had once given to a favorite flashed in the hands of a woman in the gallery. She dropped it like a frown.
He began to plead then. He begged for mercy, for pity, for help. He was all the things he had made others be. He shouted names of those who may save him. He spoke of loyalty and past deeds. He tried to bargain. I watched his cheeks shift as if weighing each syllable. He moved from proud to incredulous to pleading to panic to tears.
"Please," he said, catching at nothing, "I can give you more. I can return—"
"You took everything from others," someone said. "Where would we start?"
The crowd around us hissed and clucked. Children imitated his voice and were scolded. A man who had once accepted his gold spat at the ground as if the act could wash him. A woman who had lost her eldest son to orders Cael had given took a moment to breathe and then clapped once—soft and sharp. Others joined. It sounded like a percussion of judgment.
He fell to his knees. He looked small as he pleaded to his peers. He had no armor between him and the court now.
Ervin stood up when the courtsmen asked if anyone had a statement.
He walked forward slowly, his boots barely making a sound, and stood by the dais. He looked at Cael as if reading a last page.
"You caused this," Ervin said softly. "You made choices. You took. You stood in the cold and thought of your own warmth. You pretended your wounds deserved iron. All of us have sins. But you turned yours into a plan to ruin others."
Cael tried to respond. His lips shook. The court called for final judgment. The Emperor signed the withdrawal of Cael's offices. The guards lifted him and led him away. People followed with eyes like knives.
After the formalities, the most satisfying punishments are always the small things: friends walking away, servants who kept silence finally speaking up, a sister who had once laughed at another's misfortune finding her voice. Each small judgment became a piece of currency in the new life of their contempt.
When Cael left the hall, his face was a map of everything he had tried to buy. He could not meet anyone's eyes. He tried to call a name into the sunlight—then no one answered him.
That is the part that is too clean to be a story in itself. A man can be stripped of town and title and still be dangerous. He can still crawl into corners and sharpen edges. But the public strip had been done, and it burned him in a way he had used to burn others.
I watched him go.
People around us whispered. "You did well," some said to the magistrate. "You returned what was stolen," others said.
Ervin took my hand in the hall when we left. "Those who harmed you will not be returned to power easily," he said.
"Do you think he will mend?" I asked.
He thought a long while. "He will attempt," he said, "and some will be fooled. But power leaves marks on a man. Some marks cannot be washed."
I thought of Cael's face, the pleading, the old pride crumbling. I thought of the many small cruelties he had inflicted. I thought of my sister sitting in silk and the child with his father's eyes. The court had decided and I had a heavy gratitude.
Ervin walked me home, and as the light slanted across the lane a woman in the crowd lifted a glass crown that a man had presented to me earlier that day—the little glass coronet left by that merchant in the jewelry stall. She placed it in my hands.
"It suits you," she said.
I laughed in a way that was not pure joy: it contained sorrow and relief.
"You were always good at riding storms," Ervin said.
"We both rode storms," I said. "One of us learned to steady the boat."
In the months that followed, Cael lingered like a shadow on some houses—paper-skin thin, waiting for a chance. He wrote letters and asked half-friends for help. He sent emissaries. In some places he found people willing to take his coin again. But a man's reputation is like a garment; if it is torn in public, it is hard to pass off as whole.
Later, when the Emperor rewarded Ervin for his service and quietly gave his house tolerance and gifts, the city hummed with new talk. Weddings were arranged for daughters whose families had been returned. Old grudges cooled into memory.
"You have done more than you owed me," I told Ervin one night as we walked past the moonlit river.
He smiled at me that crooked smile he sometimes used on me. "I never did anything for you because of obligation," he said. "I did it because you do not deserve to be broken for other people's sins."
"You are a good man," I said.
"No," he answered, "I am not good in general. I am good for you."
I laughed, and a small bell of warmth shook inside my ribs.
When the court finally tied golden threads around small festivals again, Ervin presented me with a small, very private thing: an order that the Emperor had issued quietly, naming me as under his protection. "You are not mine," he said, "but you have me when you need."
The world kept turning. Dream Farrell married another man at my suggestion, one who would not use her as a step to steal. She had her faults and her courage, her vanity and her shame. She tried to live with the choices she made.
Cael drifted through seasons like an old shape of cold. He tried to call me once from far away, and his voice was the same but thinner. "Florence," he said. "You are alive and well. I heard."
"I am well," I said.
"I am sorry," he said. The phrase landed awkwardly.
"Sorry?" I repeated. "That word is heavy."
"I know," he said. "I cannot undo things."
"No," I said. "You cannot."
"Do you forgive me?" he asked, and because my nature is messy and human I was tempted to give him the easy gift of pardon.
"I will not open the old doors," I said. "I will close the room."
He did not press. He hung up.
I kept my distance. I grew closer to other things—my brother Karl Correia regained a post once, after Ervin's favor; my mother Elizabeth Walker smiled again, though the lines by her eyes remained. Halo stayed by me, the constant in a life that had too many committees of rumor.
Spring came early and the city was full of blossom and gossip. The small glass crown sat on my dresser, an odd and fragile thing washed in a thousand colors when the sun hit it. It reminded me of the times when I had given myself away and taken myself back and built the long, small life of a woman who had learned that courage can be a soft thing.
"Will you marry him?" Halo asked once when we were wrapping the crown to take to a festival.
"Who?" I said.
"Ervin," she said without much ceremony. "Will you take him?"
I thought of Cael and how power had curved him. I thought of Ervin and how he stood at the edge of the court and reached his hand. I thought of my own missteps and of the time when I had put my foot down on a person's hand and then set my heart on fire.
"Maybe," I said. "Maybe we will one day be called by the same household name."
Halo snorted and went on beating a cushion.
Months later, in the spring with petals falling like slow rain, Ervin stood before me under the open sky and spoke not with law or decree but with a voice that had been steady since the first time we had shared tea.
"Florence," he said, "if you will have me, I will not ask for obedience. I will ask for a sharing. I will stand at your side like a wall. I cannot promise to cure the past, only to defend your present."
I looked at him and for a moment forgot the world and the courts and the men and the small broken things. He held my hand like a promise.
"I will go with you," I said. "I will go with you because I choose to."
He smiled with a relief so big it looked like sunlight.
We married in a quiet ceremony the Emperor blessed, with a small crown of glass laid beside my hairpiece. Dream Farrell attended, and for a moment our house felt full instead of hollow.
As for Cael Box, people still spoke of him in corners. Some still pitied him. Some called him a lesson. But he never returned to his former place. The court had judged and the court had remembered. Even men who wanted him back as an instrument—because cruel men are useful—found that reputation had a way of staining a blade.
In the center of all this, I learned that some punishments are not meant to thrill the world. The true punishment of a proud man is to see the people he loved, the nets he trusted, untie. It is to stand in the cold and find no hand outstretched. It is the knowledge that he traded away his own good name in an attempt to feel safe, and lost instead.
I did not crow. I did not dance on his ruin. I had learned emptiness in another life.
When Cael was finally brought low in the public square, he did what all proud men do: he tried to bargain. He begged. He called for names he thought would save him. He looked around at the faces of a city that had once toasted him and found them distant.
"Do you not feel the shame?" a man asked him as Cael sat on the raised platform, hands tied.
"I feel," he said. "I feel hunger."
"You fed on others," the man answered. "Now the court feeds on you."
The crowd watched. Children played at the edges. Women who had lost houses spat at the earth. The judge recited the decree and the guards did the rest.
In the end, Cael's face changed from arrogance to something hollow and then to terror. He cried in front of everyone. People took that image and kept it. It was clean justice in the winter of our lives.
When I walked home that night, Ervin at my arm, the city looked new. There was a brightness that felt like mercy. I had been given a second life and I had used it badly in places and well in others. I had chosen more simply in the end than I had any right to expect.
"I know what you thought your life would be," Ervin said softly as we passed the river where the moon hung like a coin.
"I thought I would never love again," I said. "I thought I would die with regret."
He stopped and turned. "You deserve to be named," he said, and he kissed my hand the way a man kisses something fragile and decides to keep it safe.
"I will wear a glass crown if you like," I answered.
He laughed. "You wear it well."
Later, when I put the glass crown on the shelf where it collected sun, I felt the hush of things that had been regained—the titles returned, the family steadied, the small or large acts of kindness spread like a net.
When people asked how we mended, I always said the same thing.
"We were saved by the slow patience of small mercies," I said. "And by Ervin's stubbornness."
It is not a poetic end; it is a clear one. I had lived twice, made mistakes twice, and learned twice. Some scars remain. Some people suffer what they do because they once were careless.
When I set down the small glass crown on the shelf, I promised myself—quietly—that I would not be the kind of woman who steps on hands for the sake of her pride. That promise is the only true thing I own.
The End
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