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"I’m Not Dead!" — Coffins, Kings, and One Very Angry Surgeon
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"I'm not dead!" I screamed into wood.
"Shh—quiet!" a man's voice hissed outside. "She will hear."
I banged the coffin lid again. Nails scraped. Dust fell.
"Listen to me," I said. "Open it. I'm a living person. Open!"
Silence. Then muffled footsteps. Then the sound of a carriage or people moving. I tasted dirt and old paint. My fingers found something cold and flat—what I expected to be a night light was a plank.
I forced my knees up. The coffin answered with a dull groan. I pushed. Air stabbed my face like a slap. I gagged on stale air and the smell of lacquer and mold.
"Who—who put me in here?" I croaked.
"It's done," a woman's voice said outside, calm and cruel. "Her match is laid to rest with the general. The family did right."
"A match?" I repeated. "I don't—"
The world tilted. I shoved hard. The lid cracked. Hands outside made panicked noise.
"She's alive!" someone shouted.
"Dead women do not sit up," a different voice said. Then a laugh, low and bitter. "Guards! Watch the flowers."
I rolled out of the coffin like a wet rag. My skin prickled. I looked down at the red robe wrapped around me. A silk funeral robe. Frog shoes. My hand found a small metal handle. It felt wrong. I am a surgeon, not a ghost.
"Where am I?" I breathed. The voice in my head—no, not my voice. Memories that were not mine flooded in: silk collars, a council room, a letter about a marital match, a sudden funeral. A name in my throat like a foreign coin: Lady of the Revenue House. They called her the silent daughter. They had sent her to honor a dead war hero. They had sewn her fate closed before she could stand.
I slammed the coffin lid with my heel. "Let me out! I am not your offering!"
The sound of movement outside turned into a tense kerfuffle. Someone stumbled. Then stone scraping. Then a hand—strong, tanned, armored—grabbed the coffin edge and pushed.
The tomb roof crashed. Light rushed in like judgment. A figure in white armor pulled himself up from inside the great stone sarcophagus by my side. He coughed—badly—and spat black blood.
"By the gods," I said. I am a doctor. I looked, quick and clinical. He was carved like a hero and broken like a man.
He blinked at me. Up close his face was sharper than a coin. "Who are you?" he asked, voice rough like iron.
"You tell me that," I said. "Who are you?"
"Jackson Chevalier," he said. "I am supposed to be dead."
"You're supposed to be dead?" I echoed. "That's not my problem. You're also bleeding. Hold still."
His hand punched my wrist and kept my fingers from the torn leather on his chest. He tried to rise. He lost strength like a man with a bad line in his heart. I looked at the wound. A sword had punched through his ribs and pocketed blood like a hungry bird.
"Don't yell," he said. "If they hear—"
"If they hear what? That I can sew a living person's chest back together with a titanium blade that appeared like a miracle in my hand two minutes ago?" I asked.
He studied my face. "You have a blade."
"It's called a scalpel," I said. "I have held worse. Now stop pretending and let me work."
"Don't touch," he warned, and his hand closed on my wrist like iron fingers.
"Let go or I'll make you look worse," I said. The handle of the scalpel warmed in my palm like a key.
He let go. "Who are you?" he asked again.
"I was a surgeon in the year of leaks and alarms," I said. "I — I went to sleep in a hospital bed and woke up in a coffin."
"You woke up in a coffin," he repeated, like a man grounding himself.
"Yes." I knelt. "Now breathe, keep your posture, and stop being dramatic."
He gave a single short laugh. "Is that the promise? You will not be dramatic when I die?"
"Not on my watch," I said. "Now hold still."
I tore the funeral robe like a sheet and exposed the wound. The blade had missed heart and lungs by cruel inches. If I could clear the cavity of blood and patch the tissue, he would not die today. If I failed, he would.
As I worked, a voice—clear and automated—rang in my head: "SYSTEM: MEDICAL KIT UNLOCKED. ITEM: TITANIUM SCALPEL."
My mouth went dry. The scalpel in my hand felt real like cold home. The herbs and needles I'd seen in the fog of the "space" formed in my mind. "SYSTEM: SAVE LIVES TO UNLOCK ITEMS."
"You're odd," Jackson muttered while my hands moved. "I've been stabbed, paraded, and buried. People celebrate me dead."
"Buried alive, more like," I said, wiping away gore. "Who put you in a sarcophagus?"
"Unknown," he said. "It was supposed to be an honor. I was patched and carted back. I woke in a tent. Then—"
"The same," I said. "They wanted me to die with him." I jabbed a needle. "Hold breath."
We fought the wound like two stubborn thieves. I cut, I sewed. I stuffed him with cloths and stitches. He coughed, spat, then held his breath. His hand pressed on mine like an apology.
"You're good," he wheezed. "If I live, I'll remember."
"Then live," I told him.
At last, hours later—or minutes, time did not have patience there—he breathed with less pain. I closed the wound in careful layers. The scalpel vanished from my palm the moment the "SYSTEM" pinged again: "ITEM UNLOCKED: SURGICAL SUTURES."
Jackson lay back. He stared at the ceiling of the tomb like a man reading his name. "You talk like you have a thousand patients," he said.
"I think I'm carrying a thousand," I said. "Now listen. If you stand, you will be seen. If you get out, you'll be killed. If you stay, you will be buried."
He laughed, a raw sound. "You have a way. Are you witch? Or a thief?"
"I am Cindy Hu," I answered. "A surgeon who got very badly redirected. And I do not plan to be anyone's sacrifice."
He looked at me like he was cataloging this fact. "Cindy Hu," he repeated. "I will remember it."
We stumbled out of the tomb into a world soaked in morning sun and gossip. People whispered that a dead war hero had climbed from his coffin. They called us miracles and madness in the same breath.
"Who are you?" a woman in silk hissed at me as we left the courtyard.
"I'm the woman who will not be buried," I said. My voice had an edge I did not know lived inside me.
The household I had woken into was a nest of vipers. My father, Landon Jacobs, was a man who kept two faces — one for council and one for children. My stepmother, Muriel Beasley, had a sharp tongue and a smooth smile. My half-sister, Jana Fischer, had a voice soft enough to cut a person down with gossip.
"You're dead meat," a maid said when she saw me in the robe I'd saved. "You went to the general's tomb."
"Dead meat is still meat," I replied. "Cook it well."
I had no time for politeness. The household was ready to repackage me and ship me where I did not belong. But Jackson—wounded, scowling, and alive—stood in the yard and said one word: "Stay."
"Why?" I asked.
"For now, you can be my proof," he said simply. "You walked out of your coffin. I walked out of my sarcophagus. Whoever did this is scared. They will come again."
"That's not an answer," I said. I pressed my palm to my temple. "But maybe it's a plan."
I learned quickly that plotting was different from planning. Everyone in that house saw me as a failed thing—an asset left to rot, a story to tidy. They thought they could smother me with scorn and silence.
"You're the dead girl," Muriel said like a verdict. "You will act your part and be quiet."
"Or I will act my part and not be dead," I answered. "You'd be surprised what a scalpel and a spoon can do."
She laughed coldly. "Do you know who we have to answer to? The court; the dowager; the crown."
"I also have a system in my head that gives me things when I help people," I said. "It has a scalpel. Today it gave me a scalpel. Tomorrow it may give me a key."
Muriel's smile thinned. "You're mad," she said.
"Perhaps," I said. "But mad people survive longer than patients who wait to be buried."
When I first stood before Jackson Chevalier in daylight, he was an armor husk and a man who smelled of blood. He was awkward with gratitude. I was awkward with gratitude for being alive.
"You saved me," he said once, when he thought the servants were not listening. "You could have walked away."
"I could have stayed asleep," I said. "I had that option. But I prefer to cut things open and stitch them up. It's a habit."
He eyed my hands. "Surgeons have steady hands."
"I have very steady hands," I said.
He nodded like a man solving a knot. "If you will stand with me—if you are willing to be seen with me—then you will not be shoved back into the dirt."
"Stand with you how? As your unpaid tie?" I asked.
"By being my wife," he said, blunt and rough as a whetstone. "The court will not bury what is married to the general. My grandmother will not allow it. The dowager is a superstition and a razor."
"You want me to be your wife?" I stared at him. The idea struck me like a scalpel again—clean, sharp, and entirely absurd.
"Yes," he said. "It will keep you alive. It will keep me alive. It will keep both of us in the light."
I thought of the coffin. I thought of the red robe and frog shoes. I thought of the woman who said, "A match is laid to rest." I thought of my hands full of blood.
"Fine," I said. "But we make our rules."
"Name them," he said.
"One: I keep my hands free. Two: I keep my work. Three: anyone who says I am only a trophy will be made to apologize in public."
Jackson smiled then, a small, surprised thing. "Done."
We married. The wedding was not the satin parade of romance in the stories. It was a chess move. We were seen, paraded, and the streets that had whispered my burial shouted my welcome. People knelt to the general. People looked at his new wife with a mix of awe and ridicule. I took it in like a prescription.
"People will talk," Muriel warned, but she sounded less pleased than earlier.
"They will talk," I said. "And they will stop acting like I belong in soil."
For a while, the world smelled of victory. But victory is like a wound—you must keep dressing it, else it festers. The same hands that sent me to the grave began to spread new lies: that Jackson was poisoned because of me; that my needle work was tricks; that I had no respect for rank. Let them talk. I had more powerful tools than rumors now.
"We have a problem," Jackson said one night. He was back with me in his study, the lamplight soft on paper. He moved like a man learning his new life. "Someone wanted me dead. The arrow in the carriage was proof. The bowl of medicine had a venom only the East Mines know. The crown sent gifts and a coffin."
"Yes," I said. "And someone arranged your burial because they were afraid of you living. Someone close."
"Close to him?" Jackson asked. He tapped his knuckle to his chest.
"Close to you," I said. "Close enough to carve your name on a chest. Think of enemies who profit from your silence."
He frowned. "Who profits?"
"Those who want power in your house," I said. "The dowager. People who want to take your lands. The family you left behind to fight. People who thought death would tidy a debt."
He folded his hands. "We will find them."
"And when we find them," I said, "they will not only kneel. They will break."
He studied me. "You use the word 'break' as if you know how to do it."
"I know how to undo people," I said. "Surgery is removing a bad organ. Revenge is removing a bad heart."
He laughed. "You are blunt."
"And surgical," I said.
Our first strike was small and public. Jana Fischer—my half-sister—had been loud enough to tell a thousand lies about me. She'd said I was a ghost who'd stolen a general's life. At dinner, after Jackson had arranged a small banquet of thanks to the soldiers, Jana decided to show herself loudly and brash.
"How nice the general married a ghost," she laughed, loud and cruel. "We always knew where she belonged."
The hall went quiet. I stood, my hand on the stem of my cup. Jackson watched like a man measuring.
"Jana," I said sweetly, "you are young, but you do not know how dangerous words can be."
"Who asked you? You are the woman who crawled from a coffin," she sneered.
"Am I?" I asked. "Maybe. But today, let's test whether your words are worth anything."
I walked to the balcony where the servants kept the birds—trained homing pigeons for messages. I took a pigeon and untied the little sealed note from its leg. Inside the note was not state paper. I had written it with my own hand.
I walked back into the hall and read the note loud enough for all to hear.
"By order of the dowager Wilma Curtis," I said, quoting the note with a calm voice, "you are to be temporarily detained for questioning. Bring her ornaments and keep her shoes. The dowager makes this decree."
Jana's mouth snapped shut. Muriel paled. Muriel made a noise like a wet fish. "What trick—"
"But that's not true," Jana protested.
"Come and see," I said, and I sent another pigeon to the dowager's household.
She arrived within the hour, walking with the pomp of a woman used to people trembling. Wilma Curtis—thin and sharp and colder than coin—stood like a judge.
"Dowager," Jackson said, "you are home."
She looked at me as if I were an insect on her sleeve. "So. The braided thing who cut my grandson's chest—"
"My grandson?" Wilma said. Her voice had the rasp of years. "Did you think I ordered a burial? I would never."
"Then who?" Jackson asked.
"I do not know," she said. "But I also do not like secrets."
Jana lunged for a servant to pull her jewels in a blind, unthinking motion. There was a small gasp when the dowager's lady lifted a silk box and discovered that Jana's jewels had been sewed up with cheap thread and straw under the lining. Another servant found letters hidden in Jana's sleeve—letters from a man in the revenue house talking about arranging dowries and silencing claims.
"These are official inquiries," Wilma said slowly. "No one destroys evidence in front of me."
By midday the hall was full of crouching servants and startled neighbors and two men from the magistrate's office. The letters were cataloged. The housemaids trembled and pointed. Jana's face, fierce only an hour before, had gone grey.
Muriel's voice cracked. "This is trickery!"
"Who benefits?" Wilma asked. She looked at Muriel as if she were assessing a broken shard. "You brought a girl to be buried in a soldier's grave? You paid for silence?"
The public desk took statements. Voices rose. The servants told what they saw: bribes paid, notes slipped, a man with a yellow braid seen slipping into the garden at dawn. The magistrate read the handwriting on the notes and matched it to a scribe who had been in Muriel's service.
"Arrest this scribe," Wilma said.
"Arrest Muriel Beasley," I said, calmly, and the magistrate paused like a dog who smelled fen.
"You cannot touch—" Muriel started.
"I can," Wilma said. "Because I have a duty to the general and to the crown."
Muriel's face collapsed. She didn't faint. She shook. Her sisters, neighbors, and servants refused to stand near her. She had arranged my burial; she had plotted a marriage she thought secure. Now her plans were rung like a bell in a square the whole house could see.
"Madam Beasley," the magistrate said, "you are charged with attempted murder by conspiracy. You will be held until the inquiry."
Muriel fell to her knees like a woman who had finally understood the floor. Jana screamed my name like a curse and ran out of the hall. Guards seized Muriel by the wrist. Servants tugged at the coins she had hidden. Women who had once bowed to her now spat, loud and public, and called her a murderer.
They had wanted me buried. They would have the shame.
It was the first of many scenes. The court wrote down what our household had allowed to happen. Muriel could neither pay her way out nor charm her way from the gallows of gossip. She was dragged from her silk and placed into a small cell. Her face crumpled as servants took her trinkets and cast them into the yard like stones.
"Stop," she begged the magistrate in a voice that had once been used to calling people to service. "I did it for family honor."
"Family honor does not mean murder," the magistrate said, and he wrote it down neatly as if it were a recipe.
When they took Muriel away, I felt nothing like triumph. I felt relief. The air was cleaner for a moment. But clean air gathers dust again. There would be more to clean.
News traveled faster than gossip. Muriel's disgrace was a bell. People came with their own tales. Her collaborators—the scribe, two housemaids, and a broker who had promised to bribe a magistrate—were shown to be cornered in the street. They were outed; one of them, a man who had taken a payment and lied to Muriel, begged me on his knees.
"Please," he said. "I did what I was told. I need the work."
"You took a life to save face," I said. "You made a woman breathe a path to death."
"Please," he said again, voice thin.
"Get up," I said. "Go now. Tell everything. Swear."
He told everything on the street. People wrote; the magistrate added it to his list. They recorded confessions. He was banished from his craft and then from the city. His wife, once prosperous, was blacklisted. Muriel's money was seized. Her friends left like rats.
This was not enough to sate the readers of ruin. They wanted to see more. They wanted to see public collapse.
So we staged one.
A market day was chosen. The dowager agreed to call it a favor to the city. She wanted to make an example. The magistrate agreed—he was hungry for public order and a promotion. Jackson wanted to be done with the mess.
We sent for Muriel. They brought her, handcuffed and shaking, in a plain cart. The market gathered like gulls. People nudged their neighbors. Muriel's arrival was a sourening note.
The magistrate stood on a cart and read the indictment: conspiracy, attempted murder, bribery, and obstruction of justice. He read each item. At each charge the crowd hissed. Muriel's eyes were vacant. She mouthed something like an apology that had no breath.
"She is condemned by the law," the magistrate said. "Her property will revert to the crown to cover victims' losses."
Hands reached for torches. People cheered. Muriel fell to her knees and pleaded. She begged out loud. She named her patrons and shrank under the sound of her own voice. People began to call for worse. Someone shouted, "Make her a warning. Make her regret."
"Please," she cried, the word like a coin with no shine. "I wanted only the match. I wanted only her to be quiet. I did not—"
"Oh, but you did," I said, stepping up to the cart. My voice was not loud; it was a sound that cut. "Did you tell the men to plant the bowl? Did you ask the scribe to write the death note? Did you pay the guard?"
She looked at me with a face older than her years. "She is my husband's first daughter's child. She is a stain."
"You're a stain," the crowd answered.
Then I spoke the one thing they needed to hear.
"You are not the only woman who has been kept silent," I said. "You did not just bury one of us. You tried to bury a life. That is not grace. That is murder."
The crowd leaned in like a beast smelling blood. Someone in the back started to sing a mocking song. Muriel's supporters left like frightened birds. The clerks took down the record. The magistrate ordered her property to be burned to the ground—furniture, robes, signet rings. People set the goods alight. They made a pyre of everything she had used to keep herself safe.
Muriel fell to the ground and screamed. She clawed at the flames and called for help. People filmed with their small glass boxes—there were devices then that recorded light. Those images went through the city like a plague. The family that had shunned us had been shamed. Muriel's reputation was buried deeper than any coffin.
That was the first true face-slap. It was public, horrible, and exact. It satisfied the crowd's appetite for justice, and it made room for others to speak.
But there were more. My father, Landon, who had pretended kindness while letting his house rot, found his accounts audited and his allies "misplaced." He lost official favor. Once a man of papers, he was reduced to taking notes for a clerk in an office. His new life had no frivolity. He looked at me one day in the yard and had no words.
"Do you hate me?" he asked, ashamed.
"I hate that you were absent," I said. "I don't hate you yet."
He left like a small thing. His step into a small cubicle felt like justice to someone who had kept me as bait.
As for Jana—she lost more than face. She burned with the shame of being the instrument of lies, and she tried to run for court favor. When she found she had none, she turned violent.
"You broke my life," she cried one night, and she pulled one of the servants into a closet and smashed the servant's face with a candlestick. The servant's nose bled down like a ribbon.
"That is a crime," Jackson said quietly. He told the magistrate. Jana was brought to the hall. She shouted about ambition and the right to power and how the world had been unfair to her. People who had once laughed at me now eyed her like a rogue dog.
Her arraignment was public. She wept and begged and called me names. I met her eyes from where I stood. She looked smaller than she had in my memory.
"You wanted my death to make your path brighter," I said to her face. "You chose to hurt people to climb."
"Do you think I wanted this?" she said, and the voice cracked.
"Then stop," I said. "Stand down."
"Dishonor her," she cried. "Make her beg like she made me."
"No," Jackson said. "Enough."
The magistrate delivered sentence: public apology and banishment from any office for ten years. For the rest, she would live in quiet work.
"It is not enough," some shouted. "She is poison."
"It's justice," I said. "Not vengeance."
She bowed to us. She was taken away. Her future was smaller than she had dreamt.
After each trial, I felt hollow. The work of punishment did not fill the empty places inside me left by shadows and a coffin. But it mattered. People who had planned to hide behind the dead body of others found that bodies could fight back. The city learned that a woman who walks out of her own coffin had teeth.
Meanwhile, Jackson and I survived the court and the politics. He learned to use his power not as an axe but as a shield.
One day, months later, news arrived that the Crown Prince, Oliver Takahashi, had been humiliated in the garden by a woman named Gemma Castillo, a general with a scar and a straight walk. Gemma, at the palace, had refused his advances and sent him away with sour words. The prince's pride was hurt. He retaliated by spreading rumors that Gemma was dangerous. The prince thought he could use such rumors to push away those who stood in his path.
"People who speak for themselves make bad allies," I said.
"Power likes silence," Jackson said. "But it cannot have all."
We watched the prince's plans unravel when Gemma, strong and blunt, exposed a plot of the prince to drug an officer and then to claim the officer had become mad. She stood in the court and called him a liar. The prince's friends fled.
It felt good, for a night, to watch arrogant men learn humility. But the point was no gloating: it was the world recalibrating. Men who used others to climb found their ladders removed.
"Will you stay with me?" Jackson asked one morning while we walked the estate. There was sunlight in the courtyard and pigeons on the roof.
"Do I have a choice?" I asked.
"You choose," he said.
I thought of the coffin and the blade and the list of names that had to bow. I also thought of a man who had bled and then learned to listen.
"I choose to stay," I said. "But on the record: I will not be a paper wife. I will not be a trophy. I will be the surgeon in your house."
He smiled. "Then be surgeon, and I will be your war."
We grew like that, odd and steady. I set up a surgery room in the back pavilion. Men and women came from fairs to be sewn and set. My system—my weird "space" that rewarded me for saving lives—continued to give me small wonders when I healed people: a vial of antiseptic, a lockpick, a small surgeon's kit. I used each item like a small weapon for good.
People watched me work. They began to respect me for the hands that saved. Children who had heard the ghost story came to see the woman who pulled a general from a coffin and put him back together.
"You're famous," a small girl said while I stitched a merchant's hand.
"I'm famous enough," I said, and I tied the last knot.
But as my name rose, new enemies crept from the court. Power attracts vultures. The crown had favored Jackson once, but now jealous lords whispered and small-handed officials tried to sway the dowager. They wanted the general's land, and they wanted a clean house to take.
One autumn dawn, they set a trap. A forged letter, a false accusation, a misread sign. They claimed Jackson had ordered the death of a minor lord in battle. They said he accepted bribes from the south. They said he had ties to outside powers. Wilma Curtis—who had turned from ice to watchful now—sat like a queen weighing the wrong on balance.
"Do not trust the crown's gifts," I had told Jackson earlier. "They are a net."
He nodded. "Then we cut the net."
The court investigation began. Men were called to testify. I kept my head down for the most part. But I had learned to speak when it mattered.
On the day they planned to humiliate Jackson in front of the court with forged evidence, I asked to be allowed to testify. The magistrate laughed until Wilma nodded and told him to hush. "She can speak," Wilma said. "We need truth, and she saved my grandson."
So I stood and spoke, simply, like a person giving inoculation to a limp limb. I produced notes—letters, pigeons' stamps, the handwriting of a scribe who had signed his name under Muriel's instructions. I showed the court the broker who had taken money. I produced witnesses who had been paid to lie. The room was smoky with tension. The prince's men scowled.
"Your evidence is flimsy," one man hissed.
"Is it flimsy?" I asked. "Or is it the scent of someone who burns his own house to buy a new one?"
He spat. "You will regret this."
He did. The forger's hand was recognized; the scribe confessed; the receipts were traced. Men were led away. Their men cowered. The prince's servants were humiliated, and the prince himself went pale as a peeled apple.
"Not every victory is loud," Jackson said to me when the court left. "But this one was loud enough."
"It had to be," I said. "People needed to see their leaders fall when they built on lies."
At last, months after Muriel's pyre and Jana's banishment, everything that had to be cleansed in my world seemed cleansed. The city had watched. The magistrate had recorded the crimes. People who had once thought they could buy justice found their money worthless.
And then came the day when a different face came to the yard.
"Miss Cindy," a young palace servant panted, "the emperor sent his personal envoy. He demands your presence."
The emperor—a man large and pale and ill, called Landon Jacobs in the old days? No. Different. The imperial envoy's seal was weighty. I had not met the emperor. I had met many men who liked the idea of power.
We went to the palace. The emperor, in his gilded carriage, presented gifts—much like the day we had been paraded. But his gift this time was dangerous: a chest of gold and a small wooden box. The envoy opened it. Inside lay an old scroll and a carved wooden coffin not unlike the one I'd crawled from—the wood like echo.
"The emperor honors the warrior who returned," the envoy said. "He honors the surgeon who saved him. He now offers you land, a title, and his mercy."
We accepted the chest and the scroll. It was a show, but shows are important. The white of court can keep wolves at bay.
We returned home to find that people who had once bowed to our doom now came to offer service. Men preferred to be on the side of the living general.
When I finally went back to the tomb where I had woken, the lid was still grainy and warm with memory. I stood there and touched the wood and thought of the woman who had fallen asleep as a tired surgeon and woken into a life like a play.
"I won't forget it," I told the lid. "You were heavy and wrong."
Jackson stood behind me, hiding a smile. "You will not sleep in coffins again."
"No," I said. "I have other things to do."
He took my hand. "Will you stay?"
"I will," I said, and then I added, "But I will also keep my tools. And if anyone tries to bury another person, I will dig them out and stitch them back together, and then I will make them explain why."
He laughed. "That is a vow."
"Yes," I said. "A vow written in stitches."
We married, not because of a fairy tale, but because it was the safest place to plant our roots. We held each other in the small rooms of our house and walked into courts and markets and surgeries. Muriel's name faded into a scandal ring, her friends declared "ruined," and Jana lived out her days quiet and penitent in the outskirts. My father took a small office and went quiet as a monk. He sent me an apology once that had no flourish and was all the more honest for it.
The city learned to be kinder. It had no choice. It saw a woman, a surgeon, who could take a dead man and make him live, and for that, it stopped thinking of women as things.
One evening, after the market had dwindled and the servants were home, Jackson and I sat on our roof and watched the pigeons. The light fell on his strong cheek and made the cut from the old wound look like a thin scar.
"Do you ever think of the other life?" he asked.
"Sometimes," I said. "Mostly I think of the scalpel."
"What will you do when your 'system' gives you everything?" he asked.
"I will use it," I said. "For those who cannot fight. For those who are buried alive in marriages and in silence."
He looked at me then with a soft fierceness. "And me?"
"You keep the peace," I said. "I will keep the wounds."
We kissed then, like two tired people who shared an oath. The city below us made its noises of a life that went on. The coffin lid was far away. The dowager's voice carried wisdom rather than cruelty now. Wilma Curtis and the magistrate walked out of the courtyards and kept their heads.
My life had turned on that one night. A coffin had robbed me of sleep and given me a task. I had refused to be a corpse and turned myself into a surgeon of courts and people.
And if someone else tried to bury a life again, I would not let them. I would find the scalpel in the fog, open the chest, and pull the person out. Then I would stitch them up and make the guilty explain. I would make them beg and cry and lose what made them whole.
I had learned to cut away rot. I had also learned to stitch. Both things were necessary.
On my last walk through the streets that day, a woman who had been poor and beaten whispered as I passed, "You once came and saved my son."
I stopped. "Is he well?"
"He is," she said, tears in her eyes. "We are."
"Then tell him to live," I said. "And tell him to never bury a person for the benefit of others."
She bowed. "I will."
As I walked on, Jackson at my side, I felt the weight of the city lighten. We were not heroes. We were not saints. We were a surgeon and a general who had decided to fight wrong in the way we could.
"One more thing," Jackson said, suddenly serious.
"Yes?"
"If people ask you why you did all this, what will you say?"
I thought of the coffin, the scalpel, the scar, the pyre. "I will tell them," I said, and I pointed to the horizon where the sun was falling, wet and gold, "that I once woke up in wood and decided not to be quiet."
He smiled then. "And they will believe you."
"They will," I said. "And if they don't, there is always the court."
We laughed. The pigeons cooed. The city hummed. I kept my scalpel near at hand.
The End
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