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I Woke Up at Senior Year and Wrote a Promise
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"I got in trouble for dating?" I said, head bowed as the old man waved the ruler like it weighed nothing.
"Yes, Kendall Perry, early romance in our school—unbecoming," Erick Daniels said, voice rough with routine. "You are in the gifted class now slipping to the bottom. Explain yourself."
I kept my eyes low. I had done this before—ten years' worth of an old wound—and my mouth tasted like rust. The memory of the day my parents left me because I had shouted at them, the memory of the call that never came afterward, the memory of a bridge and the cold water—those things made me small.
"Teacher," I said, and every syllable sounded like a negotiation, "I was wrong. I'll break up right now. I swear—please, don't call my parents."
Erick paused. He seemed to wonder whether I meant it. "How do I trust you?"
"Let me sign a pledge," I said quickly. "I'll write on paper that I promise to work for Tsinghua. If I fail, I accept the consequences."
Erick blinked, then seemed pleased by the theatre of it. "Write it, then."
I bent over the paper and wrote every promise like a ritual. I pressed my fingerprint into the ink at the end because in the life I had left behind, signatures had not saved me. I slid the paper across.
"Good," Erick said. "I won't call your parents for now."
When I left the office, a straight-backed figure passed by without a glance. Grayson May—class leader and the kind of genius textbooks used as a living endorsement—walked by as if the sun followed him.
I caught his sleeve. "Can I borrow your phone? Mine is in homeroom with the teacher."
Grayson looked at me like I was an odd math problem. "Why?"
"My mother—" I stopped. The urge to hear her voice ripped at me in a way I hadn't expected. "Please."
He pulled his phone from his pocket with the same steady hands he used to solve equations. He didn't smile, but he didn't refuse. "Use it."
Behind me, someone I had once trusted—Eustace Morgan—walked toward the administration building. My stomach flipped. The word "Eustace" tasted bitter. In my last life, he had not been what I thought: our ten years together, the plans, the quiet compromises, all a slow trade for his chance at more. He had later said I was only useful as a ladder. He had made a plan and shoved me aside.
"Hello?" I said into the phone, voice clumsy. My mother's warm laugh spilled out of the speaker. I cried without warning. Hearing her voice healed and hurt at once.
A shadow moved over me. Eustace's face came into view, expression flat as if my tears were a curiosity. Before I could hide, I dove into Grayson’s chest like a child hiding from a storm. He stiffened.
"You're safe, Kendall," he said finally. The words were small but held me.
When I looked up, I caught sight of Eustace's eyes: flat, measuring. The past unspooled—the betrayal at the crossroads of parent, school, and love. The man who had pushed me toward ruin now strode closer with a look I had learned to read: plan.
"Is everything okay?" Grayson asked, as if he did not already know.
"Yes," I said, lying with a tenderness I practiced for heart surgery. "Thank you."
I went home that weekend with a stew Grayson had brought in a thermos from his own kitchen—my mother's recipe, apparently, because the aroma made my chest ache. He had said my mother called him, said she dreamed about me crying for that dish. I did not know how a boy in my class knew my mother. I didn't ask. I only said thank you.
At school, the rumor mill began to spin. The pledge in my file had become a curiosity. People laughed at my dream of Tsinghua and whispered that a girl in the gifted class who sat near the bottom had no business making such promises. Eustace circled like a vulture.
One afternoon, someone found a pink note pinned by the bulletin board. It was a confession disguised as a love letter, signed as if by me. The handwriting looked like mine—my slant, my hurried loops—but its voice was syrupy and soft, not mine at all.
"Who wrote this?" Erick thundered. He called us both—me and Grayson—into the office. The pink paper lay between us like an accusation.
"It's not mine," I said. "I can copy it for comparison."
Erick waved his hand. "I matched it to your notebooks. It looks the same."
Grayson stepped forward, calm and just. "May I?" he asked. He took the note, and without ceremony, pushed another sheet under my nose. "Copy this one, Kendall."
I copied the letter as my hands trembled. The patterns were similar, but in the subtle beats—a hook here, an extra loop there—I saw a different hand. "See," I said, "the letter is constant in its strokes. Mine would vary. I'm messy."
Erick frowned. "Still."
Grayson did something odd: he held my copy, then held the pink note to his nose. "Smell," he said.
"What?" Erick asked, baffled.
"Smell." Grayson urged.
Erick sniffed. The room quieted. "A scent," he muttered. "Not the rose oil you use, Kendall."
"Grayson—who else would be close enough?" I said, surprised and grateful and, secretly, a little smug.
He looked at me and said, "It's not you."
Two days later, more trouble arrived: someone posted that I had been seen with Grayson. Videotaped whispers spread like mold. The rumor that I was trying to seduce the class genius—me, bottom of the gifted class—made people gawk. The school was small; everyone believed something, then something else.
Eustace, though, did not need rumors. He came to me with a book in his hand—my math textbook—with Grayson's name written inside. "You're cozying up to him now," he mocked. "You won't tell me you weren't planning this."
I found a recorder on sale and began to carry it like a secret talisman. I lived by schedules and lists, reading and working until the world blurred in equations and essays. I stopped meeting Eustace. I stopped doing whatever vague favors I had performed before that made him like me. He grew quieter. Smarter men get angrier when their plans fail.
Then he attacked. He came to meet me after study hall.
"You hooked up with him?" he spat. "You betray me for his math notes?"
"Stop," I said. "Why are you saying this?"
He opened his palm and showed my math book. "This is his name, isn't it? You didn't always read; you used to be mine."
"I ask you one thing: have you been forging my handwriting and posting notes?" I asked.
He smiled like a man holding a secret. "You don't think I could help myself?"
I left with a plan. I took a tiny recorder in my pocket to his outburst and kept it safe. If a man will confess he framed me, let him be his own witness.
That night, old habits returned. I edited the audio because I could—made sure his admission would be heard by the whole school without being a messy legal mess. I slipped into the broadcast room, heart thudding, and in a breath I pressed play. Eustace's voice filled the auditorium, flat and smug, confessing under the guise of provocation.
The phone cameras lifted like a swarm. He did not know I had done it. He would learn.
When he did, the man who had once smiled like a sun lost his warmth. First, he thought I had done nothing. Then he realized his voice had been captured, and his face moved through stages: pride, surprise, denial, then collapse.
"You can't do this to me," he yelled the first time, raising his voice as if volume could demolish truth.
"It was you," I said simply when they dragged him into the administration office. "You admitted you faked the love letter and reported my 'early romance.'"
He laughed at first. "You can't be serious."
I turned the recorder on and let everyone listen again.
Erick's eyebrows arched; parents' faces filled the room. Eustace's mother burst in, eyes wide. I felt a pang of pity and then shut it out. The school is a stage of public witness; I wanted him seen and judged. Not to destroy for pleasure—though my chest sang a little—but to give him the weight of consequence he once distributed on me.
At first he raged. "You edited it!" he screamed. "You cut context!"
"Play the whole file," I said.
They played the file in full. His speech was there, intoxicated with his own cunning. He had boasted about getting me taken down and admitted the love letter was forged. He had admitted to making anonymous reports. The room changed. People who had eaten gossip swapped their looks for something heavier.
"You're going to regret this," he snarled.
"What are you going to do?" I asked, my voice cool. "Run? Lie? Beg? Say it wasn't you?"
He laughed again, but the laugh cracked.
Erick set down his cup. "We can't allow this at school," he said. "We will suspend him from taking exams for five years. His spot in the candidate list is removed."
Eustace lunged forward. "That is illegal! Who are you to judge me for my private letters?"
"Private letters that you forged to ruin a student," Erick said. "Public forgiveness doesn't free you from consequence."
And then the punishment escalated in shape and cruelty because the world is not only official punishment but also social.
We moved to the auditorium the next morning. Grayson had not wanted any part of this drama at first, but he stood beside me now, silent as a mountain. A line of students filed in; their faces were a pulsing commentary.
"Everyone," Erick said, "you deserve truth."
He told the story: the forgeries, the anonymous reports, the push-and-pull of coercion and theft of trust. He spoke the iron words: Eustace Morgan was barred from examinations for five years and would be formally reported to the regional board.
Phones started to lift, hands trembling. I watched him as the room pressed like a tide. He tried to be defiant.
"This is a witch hunt," he shouted. "You can't destroy me with rumor!"
A girl I had known only as a cousin to Eustace—Adelyn Longo—stepped forward, face pale. At first she shouted that she had been forced to lie; then she softened and began to cry. "He told me—told me he'd get land and money and we would be safe," she said. "I lied."
The crowd shifted. The first change came like frost melting: whispered "oh"s; phones filming; teachers tapping away at notes. Eustace's bravado cracked.
"You lied for him," someone yelled. "You used us."
"My life—" Eustace started, but no one wanted that voice now.
He moved through stages like a fever. At first he appealed to his parents—"You must believe me!"—and they stood like statues, then like statues breaking. I saw his father's mouth open and the silence roll out like a wave. People began to murmur: tenants, buyers, neighbors—anyone whose life could be affected by scandal. It all spilled into one massive glare.
When the punishment was announced publicly, a woman in the second row cried out, "Shame!" She clapped, startling everyone. Another student began to boo him. A mother recorded on her phone, her finger trembling. Students who had once hidden behind sarcasm now stared with something like accusation. A tall boy recorded him and laughed in the camera: "Five years? You deserved it."
Eustace's face shifted. I saw the smugness fall away, then denial—he said the recording had been edited, he said he had been set up, he said anything that would erase his responsibility. The longer he spoke, the more he sounded small. A boy nearby spat. Another whispered, "What a snake."
"Do you understand the impact of what you've done?" Erick asked, voice flat.
The man in front of us—chaotic, desperate—fell through phases: rage, confession, bargaining, collapse, pleading. He tried to blame me, tried to blame Grayson, tried to blame anyone who could shelter him.
"Please—I'll leave," he said finally, voice thin as paper. "I'll leave town. Forgive me. I'll do anything."
But the school was not mercy alone. Justice had a social spine. The crowd hissed. A student stepped forward and pointed a phone at him. "Smile for the history lesson," someone said. A woman took a photo for the local forum. Classmates recorded him because they wanted to remember the sight of a bully undone.
A cluster of parents began to chant, "Corrupt, corrupt," and people clapped rhythmically. Eustace doubled over like someone struck. Tears came, but they were not the right sort to change minds. They were the tears of someone who understood too late.
The final thing I wanted—the stripping of his chance to sit for the exams that year—happened quickly. The board sent a binding notice. He would lose entrance to many opportunities, his application files flagged. He would now be labeled as someone untrustworthy.
On the day the mailbox at school announced the suspension officially, a truck from the registrar arrived outside the family home. The father of Eustace—once so proud—stood in the doorway and watched as the letter was photographed and shared. The neighbors pointed. Some of the same people who once admired his father’s land now whispered that perhaps that land would sell for less. Word spread: a farmer's property could not be safe from gossip or consequence.
At a small market a week later where I walked thinking about old vows, a child I had given candy to months earlier pointed him out. "That's the mean man," the child said, and the vendor threw him a look like a small verdict. He ducked his head and walked away.
But punishment isn't just a paper. It is watching people rediscover the truth of you in real time: the high school friend who once defended him now blocked his number; the landlord who once smiled now tightened a lease. His mother stopped visiting the PTA; his sister cried at school gates. It's the small, relentless contraction of a life once ordinary to an ember.
I listened to all this and felt a strange mixture—relief, cold satisfaction, pity. I had wanted him to stop doing this to others, to stop thinking he could use people like spare chairs. I had wanted him to feel what it meant to be seen. I had wanted him to not have chance-free privilege. The punishment left scars, sure, but it also left a lesson.
The rest of the year went by in a blur of tests. Grayson never flaunted his intelligence; he simply answered questions with a calm the rest of us could lean on. He tutored me, teaching me methods that made sense for the first time. Our small private moments—when he would hand me a note with a tricky formula and a tiny sketch of the solution—became the kind of heartbeats I had not expected.
"You don't need to be perfect," he told me once under the fluorescent lights of the library, eyes soft as only those who study can be. "You just need the courage to keep trying."
Those were three of the moments that made me dizzy: the way he gave me a smile—thin, a private smile—the time he slipped his jacket over my shoulders without any notice when the wind bit, and our first clumsy kiss in the hallway the day we returned to campus for orientation at Tsinghua. Each was small, but they were precise.
At graduation, standing near the principal as he gave the toast, I saw the faces of those who had mocked me. They looked away. The pledge paper Erick had kept was retrieved and read aloud as a kind of joke that turned to applause. I laughed with them and felt the long river of years narrow until it wasn't only about who had been wrong but what was done next.
Eustace moved away. He tried to reclaim his life, but the mark remained. I heard rumors of his moving to a distant town; I saw, once, his mother in the audience at a school meeting, eyes hollow. Ten years of trust are not mended by a few apologies.
"Let's try this," Grayson said the morning we left for the university. He held my hand in the crowd as the bus pulled out, like an anchor.
"Okay," I said. "We'll see."
He blinked. "See what?"
"See us," I said, grinning. I reached up and kissed him on impulse, three quick pecks that made his face heat.
"You're bold," he said, stunned and sweet.
I tucked the small recorder into my case as if it had been a relic. The pledge paper lay folded in a box. The thermos with the red-braised ribs recipe traveled in my luggage as a small, stubborn proof that home still existed.
I had come back to the place where I had once broken everything because I refused to bend. I had rewired the compass. I had punished the man who took advantage of my smallness. I had kept my parents. I had learned that truth can be loud enough when you let it be.
That night, before I fell asleep in a dorm bed that smelled faintly like library pages and new sheets, I read the pledge once more.
"Promise kept," I whispered to the dark.
"Yes," Grayson murmured in his sleep beside me.
I smiled and thought of the thermos lid, the ink-smudged pledge, and the small recorder that had become a sword.
The End
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