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How to Make a Medical Man Fall in Love (or Not): My Two-Year Reunion with a White Coat
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I never expected a clinic corridor to be the place I would meet my past again, of all humiliations dressed in white.
"Juliana Neal," he said, looking up from the chart like he was reading a line that had been underlined for two years.
"Reed Courtney," I answered, because names are the easiest armor to put on when your heart is unbuttoned.
He was taller than I remembered—one eighty-three on the scale they'd taught in anatomy lab—and the white coat made his shoulders look wider, like a building with good lines. He had the same lean hands. He had the same tired smile that turned careful when he thought no one was looking.
"You need to take off your coat," he said, direct and low.
"Excuse me?" I tried to laugh. "Is that a clinic order or a personal command?"
He never smiled the obvious way anymore. He smiled like someone who learned to hide cliffs under pretty bridges.
"Just for the exam," he said, and his voice dropped a beat that felt like a private pulse. "I need to check this area."
I told myself I was a patient—professional, composed. I peeled the layers off like armor.
"You're shaking," he observed when he shrugged out my scarf.
"That's called being cold," I lied.
He put on gloves with methodical calm. He touched my skin briefly, clinically, and I felt a strange, foolish shiver.
"Here?" he asked, with questions that carried old maps and new dangers.
"Yes," I said. "There. It hurts."
He pressed lightly and I flinched. "Sorry," he murmured. "I can be gentler."
That line—gentler—settled somewhere between my ribs like a fossil. It sounded like a favor, like an unspoken keeping of watch. I told myself it was only anatomy; I told myself later it was only habit. But then he reached behind my back and fastened the clasp of my bra with the ease of someone who remembered which buttons hutched his own name.
"Thank you," I said, too soft.
"You're welcome," he said, and the room smelled faintly of citrus and chlorine. "Strange thing—have you always hated cilantro?"
I blinked. "What?"
"You don't like cilantro. You wrote about it in that small notebook in my dorm the summer when you ran after me around the basketball court."
My face must have gone pink. "You remember that?"
He nodded, then looked suddenly fidgety. "You need an ultrasound. B-scan, fourth floor left."
"Okay," I managed. "Thank you."
He watched me leave as if the sight of me walking away was a tangible thing he had to catalogue.
Outside, in the elevator, I wanted to laugh and cry at once. He had kissed me in the clinic doorway—brief, furious, impossible to place—and then when I fled he filled out my chart like it was a confession. I had come for a simple checkup. I had come to be fixed. I had not expected history to press its face against the glass.
Two years ago, Reed's kiss would have been a possibility I tried on and wore for days like a new sweater. Two years ago I had chased him; I had thrown folded poems at him in class and shoved a sandwich into his hands like a daring ritual. Two years ago I had believed in a future with his awkward hands and his basketball-still grace.
Two years ago he had been a patient mystery. Two years ago he had been my whole, small, stupid devotion.
"You look pale," the nurse said when I returned to the ward.
"Maybe I didn't sleep," I said. "Maybe I'm dramatic."
She laughed. "Don't be dramatic, Ms. Neal. Reed says you'll be fine. Fibroadenoma, small—"
"Huge word," I interrupted. "I don't want huge words."
"Is it malignant?" I whispered.
He turned that professional eyebrow at me. "No."
I started to cry like a very small animal. "Then stop teasing."
He let me. He let me break into a messy, ridiculous puddle and he smiled and called it "romantic" in the way only someone who had always known how to stay professional could do.
"You lied to me," I told him later, when the operation had been scheduled and the white light felt like a stage light focused on the tiny honest parts of me.
"About what?" he asked.
"About it being serious. You said it was 'malignant' just to make me cry."
He looked at me with a small, contrite grin. "I did that on purpose."
"You jerk," I said, and then the needle of the next day cleanly took me away.
The operation was a blur. He stood at the surgical lamp and said things to the scrub nurses that sounded like prayers. When I woke up there were bandages and the sound of someone sweeping outside. He sat in the doorway and recited post-op care as if he were writing me a small, private novel.
"Drink water," he said. "No heavy lifting. Keep the bandage dry. I'll see you next week."
"Are you my boyfriend or my doctor?" I asked, because the line had blurred like wet ink.
"Both? Neither? Just someone who cares about you enough to be honest," he said, and his eyes held mine like a patient cataloging the constellations.
There were so many moments when his care rearranged me. He remembered my dislike of cilantro. He remembered to bring a bowl without it when he stopped by with takeout. He took my bandage off with surprising tenderness. Once, late at night when a fever startled me awake, a warm hand found my forehead and stayed there until dawn. Imagine all the small, ordinary eclipses of heart—each one a small theft. Those are the flutter seconds my chest keeps in a jar.
But the heart keeps secrets, too. Two years earlier, the friction of another woman—Evangeline De Santis—had crashed into us like a storm.
"Evangeline," I say the name like a wound.
"She was complicated," Reed had tried to explain the night we almost spoke sense into our broken knot. "She's been through things. Her family—"
"Excuse me," I snapped. "Her family died and now she waves grief around like a weapon and calls it love. You called that 'sibling care' and kept it from me. You kissed me under that pretense and then left."
He had knelt in the rain and asked me for time. "Give me 48 hours," he'd begged. "I'll fix it. I will end it."
Instead, the world did what the world always does, and things tumbled. Evangeline's fall—literal, violent, catastrophic—became a headline I watched from a hospital corridor. The ambulance lights blurred like porcelain. She didn't die, but the public drama began.
"She tried to end it," I told Jayde Soares later as we sat on the dorm roof in a city that smelled of possibility and fry oil. "She said, in front of everyone, that she would go if I stayed. She made a scene."
Jayde chewed on her lip. "And Reed? What did he do?"
"He left," I said. "He went with the ambulance."
"He left? He went with the ambulance?" Jayde repeated, incredulous.
"It sounds like romance; it sounds like the right thing. But that's not how love works, Jayde. Romance is more than rescue. Redemption is later."
He promised he would choose. He promised. People promised so many things.
After the dust, after bandages and partial memories, two years passed. I wrote a novel about all this—not an exact account, of course; fiction protects the guilty and the wounded by softening edges. The book sold. It made money. It made me famous in a quiet way.
Fame brings people. Among them was Finch Buckner—the "good chaos" of my life, the man who would become my accidental guardian angel.
"Are you ready to get out of this town?" Finch asked on a day when I felt like glass.
"Where would I go?" I asked.
"A small coastal city. Sea air. Clean lines. You write. I teach. No one knows us there."
So I went with him, like a story changing its scenery. He taught me how to breathe again, slow and deliberate like a subtitle. He paid the rent for a while. He insisted on small things: a hot breakfast, a check-in text, a photograph he took of me laughing that later became one of my favorite proofs that I belonged to the world.
"Will you forgive Reed?" Finch asked me once, his fingers skimming a stack of my proofs.
"He hurt me like a careless surgeon," I said. "Not the tools—him—with judgment and with the wrong kind of mercy."
"Then don't forge him a pardon you don't mean to give," Finch said.
He was clumsy sometimes. He scared me on a mountain road once and made me believe I would fly off into the valley. He also proved himself in quieter ways. When I had the dream relapse—the dreams of cars and rocks and a distant white coat—he stayed awake and sang me bad pop songs until the world softened.
"He saved you," friends said, and it was true in a sense. He picked me up. He put tea in my hands. He read my pages before anyone else and liked what he read.
But the past has a way of dress-shopping your heart. Reed came back like an inevitable editorial note. He called me from two cities over, in a voice sanded to apology.
"Juliana, can we meet? There are things I need to say—true things."
I was clever enough to want to be angry, and practical enough to know that anger loved a witness. I agreed.
We met in a small reading room after one of my signings. There was a dozen people leaning close, avid for pages and for the gossip of two lovers who broke famously and then made books about it.
"Reed," I said. "You look older."
"You look better," he returned.
"That's selective memory," I said.
He took a breath. "I do owe you the truth."
"Yes," I said. "I am listening."
He told me about Evangeline—that the truth about her pregnancy was not what I had been told. That the child had not been his; that in the confusion of grief and dependency she had made poor choices and then pinned them on him. That he had stayed because he was ashamed to let her like that go during grief.
"You stayed out of guilt," I said. "You told me you stayed out of love for me, and I played along, because I wanted to believe you."
"I never stopped wanting you," he said. "But I failed you."
There were so many words and so many small gestures strung between hospital visits, between clinic notes and ultrasound images. I wanted fireworks, or at least a map.
Then the falling-apart party happened. Evangeline returned to the center—literal and social. She came to a public launch where my novel's adaptation was being discussed in a near-empty auditorium and tried to claim the moral high ground. She told lies that would stick.
"You took my agency," she cried. "You were cruel. You made me the villain."
I stood through it. I watched as people clicked their tongues, as the murmurs swelled like a river ready to flood its banks.
"Stop," I said, suddenly standing. "Everyone, stop."
"What are you doing?" someone called.
"You can't make this the theater of your pain," I said to her, voice small then hard. "You lied. You told people a story where you were the helpless woman and I was the thief. You told people the child was Reed's when it was not. You threatened me, Evangeline. You told me, in the clinic, that you would ruin me. Then you tried to throw yourself at the mercy of the public when you realized the attention would feed what you wanted."
She blinked slowly. "That's not fair."
"It is fair," I said. "You have been manipulating everyone for pity. You played God with people's sympathies. Reed stayed because he believed he owed you; that is not a crime. But you turned grief into a weapon, and you aimed it at me. Enough."
Evangeline smiled—a little, strangely—like someone who knew how to recover props before the show fell.
"People, you need to hear the whole thing," she said to the room, raising her hands like an actress.
"Then let's hear it," I told her.
"Fine. I'll tell my story," she said. "He abandoned me, and so did you. You—" she pointed at Reed—"you left me with my shame."
"She made up the child's paternity to force his hand," Reed said. "She told me the baby was mine. I didn't check. She told me she'd end her life if I didn't stay. I stayed out of responsibility, not desire."
A tense silence. Then the room, like an audience waiting for the final curtain, began to react.
"That's not true," Evangeline hissed. "You are both monsters!"
"I am not your monster," Reed answered. "You took a real family's tragedy and used it to trap someone. You used the hospital like a stage."
At that point, the auditorium audience divided into murmurs and gasps. A woman near the back pulled out her phone and began to record. A man opposite us laughed the laugh of someone believing he's seen the true villain. A few others shifted, uncomfortable.
"This is public," Evangeline said. "How dare you—"
"How dare you," I said back. "You told lies to the nurses. You told lies to friends. You told lies to the press. And then you tried to make your suicide an accusation."
Her face changed like weather. First it was a confident mask. Then a shadow of surprise. Then panic.
"No—no—" she stammered. "You don't understand—"
"I understand that you took grief and made it into currency," Reed said. "I understand that you've been gaslighting everyone, starting with me. We can call this what it is. We can let the people decide."
The room exhaled like a thing had been unlatched. Recordings spread like a net. Someone shouted, "Tell them the truth!" and another shouted, "She lied!" A few people clapped at that; others looked horrified. A woman pushed forward and asked, "Are you going to apologize to Juliana?"
"Apologize?" Evangeline said, her voice frayed. "I—"
Then the slow collapse began. She reached for a version of denial first: "You're making this up. This is all a revenge story."
People around us murmured—both appreciation and doubt. Reed's calm face hardened. I felt something like cold justice settle over my shoulders.
"Listen," I said quietly, and everyone strangely became quiet. "If you want to be believed, be honest. If you want to heal, be honest. But you cannot use people's sympathy like a weapon. You used your pain to draw me out and then called me the thief. Stand up and tell the truth."
The first change was in Evangeline's posture. Her bravado collapsed. Tears came like a belt snapping. She'd been theatrical, and now the show was ending.
"I—" she whispered. "I just wanted him." Her voice crumbled. "I thought if he stayed, I could fix things."
"Then fix it by being honest," Jayde shouted from the side. "Not by burning other lives."
Her face warped through the stages: cunning, shock, denial, collapse. She tried the argument of victimhood: "You don't know what it's like! I lost everything!"
"That is exactly why you must not throw what you have at others," someone in the front said sharply.
Now the crowd was no longer passive. A man stood and said, "She threatened people, lied, and revolved everything around herself." Another woman began to clap slowly, some joined, the sound growing like a tide.
Evangeline's eyes, which had been an exacting blue, now darted, looking for an escape. "Please!" she said to Reed. "Please—it's not only me—"
"Stop," Reed said. His tone had shifted. He did not raise his voice to shame her, but he did not shield either. "If you want to be held as a victim, that's one thing. But the truth doesn't allow us to keep playing these games. You used a child and a death to manipulate. You forced me into a role I did not choose. You tried to make Juliana a rival for your wound."
The accusations hung there, heavy and raw. People took photos. Some whispered, "Oh my God," or "I can't believe it." The atmosphere was close to a tribunal.
Evangeline began to beg. It was pitiful. "Please don't do this," she begged. "Please don't make me the villain. I—"
A woman near us raised a hand and said, "No more manipulations. You chose drama over help. Go get real help—therapy, professionals—not performative crises."
"Get away," Finch said when he stepped forward, his voice steady. "Leave now. If you come back near Juliana, I will make sure people know everything—names, lies, recordings. This is a façade."
That threat was different: it wasn't mob cruelty, it was boundary. The room watched as Evangeline wilted. For the first time her face looked small and human, not dramatic or grand. She tried to laugh, then stopped. Her pleading turned to sputtering denials: "You don't—You can't—"
The clapping turned to murmurs to silence as people backed away. A pair of younger men looked disgusted; someone snapped a photo of her face. A friend of Evangeline's—someone who had stood by her earlier—moved forward, whispering, shaking his head as Evangeline crumpled.
Her final stage was collapse. She dropped onto a nearby chair and sobbed openly, a ragged, exhausted sound.
"Get her help," Reed said quietly.
"Stop recording," I said, because the recorders were still on. "If you're going to hold her accountable, do it with decency. Post the truth if you must—but do not make this a spectacle of cruelty."
The crowd obeyed, mostly. The applause had stopped, replaced by a heavier kind of attention. The mood was not triumph so much as a cautious turning.
Evangeline's reaction—smug to shocked to adamant to pleading to breakdown—had played out in public precisely as the rules had demanded. The witnesses were varied: industry people from my book circle, clinic nurses who recognized her, strangers who came for the conversation and stayed for the drama. Cameras and phones had done their work; gossip would do the rest.
Later, Evangeline's lies were replayed, verified, and exposed. Nurses were asked to share notes. Reed released statements about the child's paternity and the truth that had been hidden under shame. My publisher issued a short, dignified statement about the harm that manipulation causes.
The punishment was public humiliation balanced with a chance for help. People were merciless in small ways—comments, whispers, social media threads—but also practical: friends stepped away, editors declined collaboration, a couple of clinics refused her presence. She had to answer to the people she hurt, not only to me. She crumpled under the weight.
But the most devastating moments were private. In the hospital corridor where it all began, after the crowd had dispersed like a tide, she sat alone on the bench. People walked past her, eyes sliding away. A nurse she had once charmed looked at her with something softer than disdain—pity. Her hands trembled.
"Why did you do it?" I asked once, because even villains have reasons, and because understanding is not the same as forgiving.
She looked at me with hollowed eyes and sobbed: "I thought love would fix me. I was wrong."
"Love doesn't fix," I said. "Help does."
She racked for words. "I'm so tired," she whispered. "I didn't mean—"
"You meant to control," I said. "You meant to keep a center by hurting others."
She stood and tried to apologize. The apology was raw and small; I accepted it as a human start, not as a return ticket. That was the punishment—public removal of her advantage and private removal of her manipulative props. The crowd watched as a woman who had used pain as a tool was stripped of audience; the world is ruthless that way sometimes.
After the public airing, Reed and I had the strangest reconciliation. He didn't beg as much as he was honest.
"I was cowardly," he said. "I should have told you everything."
"You hid behind someone else's grief," I said.
"No," he said. "I hid from my own guilt."
We talked like two people trying to make sense of a map. He stopped being the neat hero or villain and began to be a person with brakes and regrets.
"Do you want me to come back?" he asked finally.
"I want you to be honest," I answered. "I want you to be brave for more than an hour. I want to know you will pick what is true over what is easy."
He didn't give a neat promise, but that exchange—honest, tremulous—was a small ember. Finch watched from the frame of the door with a face that looked like someone who had reheard an old song.
In the months after the exposé, Evangeline's life narrowed. She sought therapy. Friends who had been fooled left once trust broke. Reed's reputation stung for a while, but he kept working and showed up for the people he loved. Finch, my ridiculous, wild-laughing anchor, continued to be boringly steady. Jayde moved toward her own quiet happiness with Heath Clarke. My books kept selling—sometimes for the wrong reasons, sometimes because readers found truth in fiction.
"Do you regret opening your life up to story?" someone asked me at a late-night reading.
"I regret only that I let shame live louder than truth for a while," I said. "But I wouldn't take back the things I learned."
Heard another way: if you must be hurt in the course of living, let that hurt be a teacher and not a vine that chokes you.
A year later, I sat with Reed in a quiet café, both of us sharing coffee like people trying to relearn each other's faces.
"I remember you once told me you'd be the kind of man who bought people soup when they were cold," I said.
"I bought you soup once," he admitted.
"You took off my scarf," I said. "You held my fevered head the night I thought I might die. Those things are real."
"They were," he said. "So are your stories. You turned pain into pages. You turned grief into sentences. You found dignity."
"Did you come back because you believed me or because you wanted to unburden?" I asked.
"Both," he said. "And because I was tired of being a passive person in my own life."
We did not make promises that day. We made a plan: to try honesty for a while, to see what living with truth and friction felt like. To let courage be more than a line of text.
"One step," he said, like a poor surgeon with a delicate touch.
"One story at a time," I said.
And that is the end of my unreasonable, messy, human experiment: I fell, I wrote, I healed, I loved, I closed the hospital room door behind me and walked out into a cold city that had too many lights to count.
The End
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